Totally Confused

Haiz,

Today is the 21 August already.

And I'm supposed to be tendering my resignation soon.

Gez, but I'm feeling so unsettled.

Should I? Should I not.

It seems so wrong to leave now. At this time whereby everyone is putting in 101% effort to make this new company work out.

But if I dun leave, I'll still be unhappy. I have enough of this live.

In the past, it may be due to Gene that I kept myself here. But now that he have chosen to left my live once and for all, nothing seems to be able to keep me here.

It's like, I never felt that I belong here in the first place, It's not my life. Not my crowd.

Ever tried this? You are in a room ful of people, people who you see almost every day. But you just can't help but feel lonely. The fact that those who surround you are the ones who are suppose to be your friends, only manage to make the loneliness feel bottomless.

That's all I feel at every company gathering. At least I dun have to put on a mask in the shop. Me and Chris nia. :)

Haiz.

What should I do...






Life's Jus A Dreamz, Or Nightmare U decide

Gez,

It feels like a hundred years since my last entry.

Hahahah, Just been to lazy to blog recently.

Well, Lottas of stuff happen in this short 1 month.

I got ditched, got to a new outlet, found a new life. How should I put it into words.

Hmmm, things seems to be turning for the better. That's one thing for such.

At least, I'm a lot happier alone now, with just my closest people around supporting me. And I came to realise the sad truth of desperately trying to love someone who doesn't love you.

See, given a choice, would you rather be the one revolving around someone's life. Or be the one to let the person revolves around your life.

In simple terms, would you rather love or be love?

I definitely found my answer after 1 and a half year of shit. I RATHER BE LOVE.

It's a blessing, to be basked in another person love than desperately trying to love someone. It's just too hard to do so.

Guess it's truth, never been there, never done that, never fall before and you will never learn.

All my rubbish Philosophy of life. and love. K, enough of that. Just some photos to share.

Wines. Trying to learn more bout it. Cool place I found. I mean I know it's existense, But never been there till recently.

Cheers..... (*_*) Oppsss...

Life's Jus A Dreamz, Or Nightmare U decide